My brother has been watching anime all day ( ; _ ; )/ and I’m sad cause he didn’t invite me.
December 2011
79 posts
There’s this one girl in my class. She’s not all that pretty and her butt isn’t even that nice, but for some reason whenever she goes to turn in her work I always seem look at it. I don’t even admire it. It’s just your average butt and for some reason my eyes just land on it. It’s really odd and I think she’s starting to notice. #awkward
I think my mom just found out that my step dad watches porn or something. She just called me and said, “he’s such a jerk… If someone… bookmarks a site… that means they go on it A LOT right?…”
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My mom has been so unbelievably careless this whole week. For example, this morning I was late to school because my mom was on Facebook for too long and forgot that she had to take me to school.
What.
November 2011
43 posts
I thought I saw my summer school crush after second period today, and my heart got all fluttery and nasty. It was beating so hard to the point where breathing kind of started to hurt. I only reacted this way because he doesn’t go to my school anymore… So I was caught off guard… Otherwise I would have totally acted cool about it…
I’m actually spending money on my mom right now. It’s really weird. Hopefully she likes it, she doesn’t know I’m doing this so… hopefully her expression when she opens it will be like this :O and not :/
Aw, I survived the first day back from break. Although I don’t know if you can consider it surviving if you weren’t even aware of the whole day happening. I was so out of it, even though I had more than 8 hours of sleep. What I love about Junior year is that no one cares anymore about socializing with people anymore and all that stuff. At least at my school. Everyone is laid back and it’s great because what I hate the most is forced conversation.
“I felt that I was not, never had been and never would be a living part of this overpoweringly solid and deeply meaningful world around me.”
—John Knowles, A Separate Peace
“If you become empty, you’ll be thrown away.”
—輪るピングドラム (Mawaru Penguindrum)
My cousin and I were so bored today that we actually worked on our homework. It’s kind of sad. We were all, “I don’t wanna do homework but what am I gonna do if I’m not doing it… Nothing… So might as well do homework.” There was literally nothing to do… but for us to do our homework…
Just came back from watching Breaking Dawn with the family and I’m not going to lie, I actually really enjoyed it. I thought that it was definitely way better than the ones before it, and there were less cheesy parts as well. I almost couldn’t even watch Bella towards the end cause she looked so gross. Ugh, and when she was about to give birth I thought she was going to go through some exorcism.. Yea.. Anyways! Whoo!… I’m excited about part 2… :-)
you say potato i say that my relatives died during the potato famine and you never say potato around me again
I wish that over-thinking had it’s benefits.
“Anyone who falls in love is searching for the missing pieces of themselves. So anyone who’s in love gets sad when they think of their lover. It’s like stepping back inside a room you have fond memories of, one you haven’t seen in a long time.”
—Haruki Murakami
sometimes quality people follow me and i actually cry and whisper “i’m so sorry you’re going to regret this”
Biggest dilemma of my life at the moment is figuring out which docs to buy. I’m really stuck between these / these. I’ve been lusting over the pewter ones for awhile now but my original plan was to get the classic black. Argh! I did get enough money from my birthday to buy both but… I’m not sure if I’m that willing to blow all that cash on shoes… Hmph.
sometimes people reply to my posts and i dont know how to respond so i dont respond but then i feel like by not responding i made them feel like im ignoring them when im not and then i just weep into my keyboard
My boyfriend does this adorable thing where he doesn’t exist
pretend my blog is your dreams and follow them
It’s 1:45PM now at my house and everybody is finally starting to get up.
i’ve got 99 problems and like 97 of them are all my fault
I officially have no life. I spent the last 2 hours trying to find the perfect theme for my blog and my side blog.
I spent 2 hours. Of just looking, then editing, then hating it, then changing it again.
Wheeeee! Now I’ll spend the rest of my day eating and watching dramas. Today looks promising.
꽃처럼 한철만 사랑해 줄 건 가요
에피톤 프로젝트
꽃처럼 한철만 사랑해 줄 건 가요 - 에피톤 프로젝트 ♫
Song A
Sesame and Cotton Candy
Song A | Sesame and Cotton Candy
First Day Of My Life
bright eyes
First Day Of My Life - Bright Eyes
This is the first day of my life
I swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed
They’re spreading blankets on the beach
Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
Now I don’t know where I am
I don’t know where I’ve been
But I know where I want to go
And so I thought I’d let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realize that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home
Remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange you said everything changed
You felt as if you’d just woke up
And you said “this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”
So if you want to be with me
With these things there’s no telling
We just have to wait and see
But I’d rather be working for a paycheck
Than waiting to win the lottery
Besides maybe this time is different
I mean I really think you like me
sometimes people think i’m not online because i don’t post anything
but i’m always here
scrolling
watching
judging
I’m getting back into listening to k-indie, and oh how I’ve missed it. Even though it’s a foreign language to me, I can’t help but be absorbed by their smooth voices and the easy going style.
I’m so terrible at finding the right things to say when people are down. I just lack that ability. At the same time I want to help them feel better so bad, but since I don’t know how I just keep quiet and act awkward. It really bothers me that I’m not able to comfort those that I care about. I just… can’t… find the right words and when I do say something it all sounds so pathetic and cliched, it literally gives me goosebumps because it sounds so lame.
Ugh why do I suck.
“I felt like crying but nothing came out. It was just a sort of sad sickness, sick sad, when you can’t feel any worse. I think you know it. I think everybody knows it now and then, but I think I have known it pretty often, too often.”
—Charles Bukowski
So my cousin recently asked me on how he should approach this girl that he’s interested in and I’m not quite sure what brought him to think that I would have the answer. Besides the obvious fact that her and I are both the same gender… doesn’t exactly mean we think alike. Since he never really asked me these kinds of things before, I figured he was kidding so I messed with him and at the end he was all “Nevermind :(“
OOps. I think he was being serious… :( I suck…
So I just checked my grades online and I’m so happy that I have a mother that doesn’t know how to work a computer. If she was able to and she knew that she could check my grades online, I would be dead right now. I started off the 1st quarter lookin cute, but now everything is far from cute. I’m not sure how everything went down so quickly but there’s all this motivation that was bottled up inside me ready to be used now! After seeing how much it dropped I’m suddenly excited to… pretty much do what I’m supposed to do, which is actually study and do my homework. I don’t know I have trouble keeping up with that routine. Anyways I think I’m mostly excited about getting things to prepare myself for it. Such as a planner, some good pencils, a new binder with new dividers, and I definitely have to stock up on some nice college ruled paper.
Wow… I honestly did not even realize that I was missing all the daily school essentials. I really need to re-stock up on some things. Didn’t even notice that it’s been 2 weeks of me being that annoying person in class who always asks the people around them for a piece of paper. Ugh, I need to get my head back in the game. Don’t know how I managed to get this distracted…
Sometimes I like to say that I’d rather be home all day every day just doing nothing but watching anime (or other t.v shows) all day long, but… Even after awhile of that (like 4 hours) I start getting really bored and upset. After watching I start thinking of all these problems I have! And I have no idea why! I start thinking about my future and how much of a failure I am. That my life is going to waste and blah blah blah! It’s all this nonsense that’s really negative and unnecessary. It’s really odd and I hope this doesn’t mean that I have to take a break from my anime/t.v show marathons… ‘cause this feeling almost always happens afterwards…
あの夏へ 『千と千尋の神隠し』より
Sal
あの夏へ 『千と千尋の神隠し』より- SAL
Just saw the first Christmas commercial of the year. I’m not even going to lie, I got excited. Maybe I’m just saying this because the whole Christmas craze hasn’t hit yet, but for right now I’ll just say it…
I can’t wait for stores to start decorating, to see cheesy Christmas sweaters being worn, and of course for non-stop Christmas music to be played. I’m really excited about that last part. Today in my T.A period the office lady mentions to everyone that she brought her Christmas CD and right when those words came out of her mouth, the little person within me danced for joy. I’m just reeaallyy digging Christmas music right now and I can’t wait for it to be blasting in every store that I go to ect. When the period was over I even asked her if she could play it tomorrow. She gave me a little laugh and said that she definitely will. Yippee!
Ugh, what is wrong with me… I should not be allowed to be this excited.
My family looks so cute right now. We’re setting up the Christmas tree a bit early this year and our house is just jolly right now. I’ve got Christmas music blasting and even my dog has a Christmas shirt on (that was originally on a teddy bear)! Everyone is so happy and I can’t wait until the lights get on the tree and when there’s actual presents! Oh and of course when Christmas really does come around. Seeing how fast October went by, it’s going to be right around the corner.
I have this sudden urge to play Animal Crossing, but I can’t find my DS!! Boo.
“And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it’s already happened.”
—Douglas Coupland
Ugh, that picture of Alexa Chung and Pharrell Williams. So perfect.
Having friends that can drive is such a weird feeling. I still feel like all of us are all too young still, seeing my friends who are the same age as me behind the wheel is crazy… I feel like I’ll never be old enough or mentally prepared to drive…
I can’t sleep because for the first time in a long time a boy is occupying my mind. Really? Right when I said that life was so swell? I’m so annoyed! Whenever I close my eyes I see him and it’s seriously not necessary. I have to wake up in practically 4 hours! Not cool. The fact that this guy is making me lose my beauty sleep is making me kind of hate him now…
Life is so good for me right now, I honestly have nothing to really complain about. Well… before I never really did, but me being my whole drama queen self there’s always “something” to complain about. This week has been nice to me so far though! First of all it’s going by really fast and second of all even my mindset this whole week has just been in a Go With the Flow type of way. So life is just going swell! Whee
Sorry if I don’t update in awhile, I just started a blogspot with my cousin and I’m digging the whole blogging experience over there. It’s definitely more quiet and complicated, which sucks, but yeah… so if you have a blogspot let me know! We’re looking to follow more people lol, we’re pretty lost…
